Regaining a sense of joy

I wrote that my new years resolution is to seek God wherever he may be found becuase in Jeremiah 29 God says that he will be found by me if I seek him with my whole heart.

This past year was a very trying year for my family to say the least as many know. And I will say that soemtimes I sought God well and sometimes I yelled a God a lot. Either way, the times that I truly sought God with my whole heart, He was found by me.

Well it seems that I have began again to leave that road and to try and solve my problems on my own terms. And I think that it has left me wanting...more from my life.

I think the place I need to start is centered in God... I need to seek God completely so that I can find myself totally enveloped within his sphere and not He in my sphere so to speak...

So again this year I am attempting to not only seek God with part of me... but with my whole being so that I can be found by him and I can find him...

I don't know what that means... and it is kind of scary because his plans may not be my plans but I have to trust that his plans are better and infinitely full of more blessings.